God and I banter…a LOT. He often just listens while I tell Him … then He chuckles…and does whatever He wants.
The original title was “Our Greatest Fear” . Because that’s what it is..or was…or …Hmmm.
What are your fears? Wait! Don’t tell me….Abandonment? Failure? Ridicule? Spiders???
Failure is God’s plan to prepare you for great responsibility.
Turns out to be not anything I imagined. Fear of aging or death?…gone. Fear of failure? been there done that….repeatedly. Fear of poverty? ehhh.
God’s ways are to allow us to face our obstacles, giving us the chance to overcome them.
God also has a g-r-e-a-t sense of humor. Don’t believe me? Try Him.
Turns out at each turn what I have feared the most in that season I have eventually been forced to face. Rejection?… Yep. “Abandonment”…ouch. Fear of Front and Center…over it..Cameras, microphones…yawn.Fear of success, acceptance, shining…ho hum. (please DO NOT tell Him the latter are wobbly..let’s just call it good 😉 )
Human beings like plants grow in the soil of acceptance.
Along the way we have the opportunity to be well, human.
I so wish I could report that I was more successful at being less human.
F-A-I-L. Opportunity to take offense..to retreat..to hide.. be gone.
Whenever anyone has hurt me I try to raise my soul so high that offense cannot reach it.
“We should be too big to take offense and too noble to give it.”
So where does the funny part come in you ask?? Right— about—- here. The bad and ugly have fallen by the wayside…after being magnified for all to see. (ouch AND Yikes!) What was stuck is now unstoppable. What was a deal between me and the Great I AM to come this close but don’t go in there, or mess with that and we’ll get along just- fine, made Him chuckle. (When I Am chuckles at your “deal” ,be warned.)
“Oh really?” says He. “Yes please” whispers I.
Turns out that at each step what I have feared the most in that season I have eventually been forced to face….and heal. Thankfully. Healing and opening a little more of this tender Heart each time. (remember the title of this blog?)
Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I’ll try again tomorrow.
The really funny part is that if you know anything about (irrational) fears…. facing, confessing, overcoming them….they lose their sting. Yet still we resist.
A funny thing happened on the way to Living…..turns out the greatest fear is none of these.
Turns out that my greatest fear ever, is to even for a moment, be separated from The Presence, Goodness and Light Of The Living God. A funny thing happens on the way…when we finally really, truly start living.
Dreaming big…with Heart Wide Open…where ever she’s planted. Now that makes Him smile. (whew!)
next time~Live, Love, Believe Again….